“Fulko Ankha ma Fulai Sansara, Kada ko aankha ma kadai sansara” This song by Ani Choying Drolma is one of the most beautiful musical creation ever. We all have been captivated and must have hummed this many times. Yet, how many of us actually accept and uphold the songs true essence? Well, I thought that the song probably demands too much of us. “Mero Paitala le, kirai namaros” is that even possible?
“There are no problems only situations, it’s in how you approach them”. I randomly shared this quote in Facebook. I was impressed by the thought. My father gave a thumbs up in agreement. This was my first encounter with “Jaggi Basudeva” better known as ‘Sadhguru’. Long white beard, and eloquent eyes; the first two things you notice about this guy who speaks to the youth. Gradually, I started listening more of him in YouTube. He spoke in a language that not only I, but any 16-year-old could comprehend. The way he sheds clarity to subject matters was simply phenomenal. His perception of life and everything for that matter was so clear. He could put the world’s most complex issues in a very simplistic, logical and practical manner. So, an Indian Baba whose discourses are in English, followed by the youth and shared a common love for motorcycles. I found his overall personality really intriguing and felt an instant connect.
Just out of curiosity about this guy and his methods, I decided to join his yoga class branded as ‘Inner Engineering’. A chapter that started out of intrigue and curiosity turned out to be one of the most significant part, which has probably changed the rest of the script.
After one year of Inner Engineering, I can definitely say that It was one of the best decisions of my life. The experience was so enriching that it changed something inside of me. In this blog, I have shared some of the changes I experienced within me.
“Joy, misery, anger, pleasure and ecstasy are all created within us and by us. External events are just triggers to which we may choose to respond or not to respond. Whenever you are angry how do you feel? Do you feel pleasant or unpleasant? Of course you feel unpleasant. Now, if you had a choice to keep yourself in a state of pleasantness or anger, what would you choose?” – Sadhguru
Inner engineering made me realize that I had a choice. I had a choice to remain in a state of pleasantness or become miserable.
Clarity comes only after chaos. A person who is in the path of spirituality might look very calm and composed from the outside, but a thousand questions are constantly running in his mind. His mind is an ocean of questions that people might not give much attention to.
Currently, I have a thousand questions and most of the answers lies within me. The clarity that I am referring to is the realization that it’s time to turn inwards.
My relationships have improved. Today, I have a better grip over my emotions and thoughts which has led to improved dynamics in my relation with my parents, friends, colleagues and even strangers.
Only if you feel responsible towards something, you feel accountable and try to do something about it. One of the virtue lacking in most of the people is the feeling of responsibility. We feel that everything is someone else’s responsibility. One of the basic example is our country itself. We feel it is the responsibility of the political leaders and civil servants to make the country better. Whenever we abuse a leader or question their integrity, it is very important to question ourselves first. Before questioning the people in authority, think whether you have performed your duty as a citizen or not. We have to understand that democracy is a participatory and not a spectators sport. In an interview, famous Nepali entrepreneur, Karna Shakya rightly pointed out that we Nepali’s were “Praja” in the Rana and Shah regime, today we are ” Janatas” but, we could never become a “Nagarik “, a citizen.
- Consciousness and compulsiveness
‘Consciousness’ is one of the most debated and researched topic in the world today. Most of the things we do today are a result of 98% unconsciousness and unconscious behaviors are reflected through our everyday compulsive habits. Whatever is compulsive is unconscious. Few instances may be the bad habits you want to quit. If you think carefully, most of your bad habits are a result of unconscious behavior. If you were conscious enough, you would have corrected the bad habit. But, the problem is that most of the times we don’t even realize that we are actually doing it.
I proudly announce that I quit smoking. Previously, I made several attempts but failed happily. Every smoker knows that it is injurious to health and yet quitting is almost impossible. Continuous inner engineering practices made me realize that smoking is actually causing harm to my own body. I always knew this but once you consciously feel and experience the poison, quitting was suddenly easy and came rather naturally. One of the important aspect of yoga and spirituality is to maintain one’s body in perfect harmony with the universe and smoking was not helping.
“Peace and joy are not the ultimate, but the basic.” -Sadhguru
Imagine having your lunch while you are angry and disturbed. Can you enjoy it? Even to conduct a simple act of eating we need to be at peace within us.
I can joyfully state that inner engineering practices have made me more joyful and peaceful within me. Today I am less angry and more lively. I feel more responsible towards everything in general and most importantly it has made me more conscious than ever before.
I have understood what “Fulko Ankha ma Fulai sansara” means. But understanding is one thing, and I am glad I do, but it is simply not enough. I want to experience and become the flower that she is referring to. I want to be in that joyful and ecstatic state every moment of life. The experiences I had might just be a drop. I want to experience the ocean.